reddish blues

its been a couple of weeks and gautam has developed this stomach condition. tonnes of ache and no relief. first they diagnose stone then pancreatitis. what that means to us is spending nights with him in his chemically stinking room monitoring his drip and stuff. for him it means a ticket back home, and for us, one person less to share the rent. and the doctor, mislead by gautam's apparent abundance of facial hair and hair in genral, finds it hard to believe that he does not drink. hence the question again and again, do you take alcohol? are you sure? (i wanted to write about the poor health care systems but i dont feel socially obligated right now). so yeah hes going home. i want to go home too, im not perticularly happy these days. the question is which home?


if testosterone implies manliness
and testosterone causes to go bald
then gandhiji was one MARAD.