I want to talk about girls like i was a teenager. i want to not miss the what we have already irrevocably skipped in time. the hindi feature filmi life. the stupidity. it was always a choice, and we had always to choose. I am not saying we went wrong. I am just saying it would have been nice to have both. in theory it does seem that way. in theory love would have been good. good theory makes good literature.

i want you all to be tormented. so i got some love songs for you to listen to. the playlist is called:

Immobilize me. kill me or love me.
yeah that sounds cheesy enough. It was always going to be stupid you know.



and this:



and this:



this too:


I think this is how I'll always know, through songs. I can't wait to read this post when I am 50.

all the songs here are from 'the boat that rocked" OST save the last. thats neil young. the guitar is so kickass that its not a love song or anysuch.

kung fu panda.

No. this is not a misleading misnomer of a caption.
I love the movie. It is the most awesome animated movie. it is the most awesome animated movie ever. it is the most awesome animated movie ever.

wow. this feels like new.

i so miss IIT Kanpur.

I miss being a hero.

I've always felt myself a misfit where ever I've been. without fail. I don't know, maybe its my undying, self rebutting, self that just happens to find peace in it. maybe a justification for the apparent incohesive chain of events and situations. better a stranger if its something you don't comprehend. right? but it also concerns me. I find this leads to a loss of identity of sorts. a lack of a marker. nothing absolute to make other things in relation to it. like a giant array of springs not fixed to anything, like the expanding universe with no center. I usually have this sense of detachment and in certain ways its very convenient. in others, its not.

any way i take up my first shitty job from tomorrow. first ever monies. first ever true independence, or is it?


I'll try against it, but i get this feeling i am going to be away for some time from here, so i'll leave you with the best picture i have seen in a long long time. it also happens to be the most important image ever taken by mankind, when it peeked into the depth of space for 11 days straight in an effort to see both, the bygone and the byfar (i made this word up. sorry.) But, if you appreciate this picture i can assure you you're in the right direction, where ever that might lead.

every smudge, spot, feature in the black is not a star, but a galaxy. and all in a patch of sky the size of your fingernail kept at a couple of meters distance.


The Hubble Ultra Deep Field.
Cheers.

fernando torres ki ass kitni sexy hai, mujhe chahiye.

It irks me to see how you have so comfortably blended into it all. I have not made my peace with all of this. no no. no. not yet.