it was a pleasure then.

lustful restful eyes
motionless motive lies
weird algorithms of life
saved from blandness, an inner strife
wired and weak, body calls to rebuke
hollow light burdens, heavy delights.


some mystery in long drawn sounds
it isn't there, but you'd like to see
some beauty in sin,
the one within.
desire for immaculate dirt
a winding circular path
saddened by happiness again
it was a pleasure then
it's been ever since.


Anna is gone. He won't call. He'll never call.

I'll give you a piece of my senti mind.

i never really get sentimental when people leave. i used to think this was because i thought all such activity was futile and essentially gay. i was wrong. i think its actually that the implications of someone leaving takes time to sink in. especially in the past four years i have seen them all go and bid them goodbyes so many time, on so many occasions. but it has been there somewhere stuck in my mind as a constant, that its not over. but that is what is different this time round it is over, and it still doesn't sink in. john left, then PG, then Bangali, and now Khets.
I'll tell you a joke about a dumb scientist:
so there was a stupid scientist who was tabulating the results of the loss of limbs in a cockroach. he snips off one of its legs and commands it to walk. the roach complies. result: the cockroach is able to walk after the loss of a leg. subsequently he goes on to cut its other legs. each time the roach manages to obey. except when the last leg is cut off, the cockroach doesn't do a thing. the result: cutting off the last leg causes the cockroach to go deaf.
so its quite the same actually. it wasn't really palpable when one left. just made me a little uneasy. but take away everyone and it leaves me feeling like the cockroach. its not awesome. given a choice i would like them peeps back.
that is all the sentiment i can confess to being the clean and sober person that i am. i didn't say goodbye the way i'd have liked to. i wish i could do that. sayonara awesome people.

The Sunrise Tonight

when you're left with limits
of conditions to explore
left to drag limp feet
while prodding the dark with a blind stare
no direction for the eyes to meet
the difference runs too deep
and this smile is too heavy to keep

why do you have to be so important
but you are
why do you have to be so important
but you are

beneath the petaled veil hides
an ugliness of unsatisfaction
with a silver spoon in your mouth
your tongue never ceases, it glides
laid bare is the anatomy of it all
with its scissored incisions
solid air and percussions.

why do you have to be so important
but you are
why do you have to be so important
but you are

day falls too quickly in your eyes
you missed the sunrise tonight
with a subtlety of a myth it arrived
but we shall both see tomorrow clear and bright.
and you will say
it'll all be alright
or will you?

why do you have to be so important
i let you be.

kal ki mirchi yaad aa gayi.

this just is.

the purpose of proposition
an insipid air of renunciation
the vultures of lust bite the lower lip
a silly melody in the gyrating hip
the grand and the eternal lie in the great beyond
two steps away from our frivolity
winding through the ages and refined
frantic idiocy and i lose my mind
a black crow from powerful eyes
abandons us where beauty dies
carries power skipping smokey rings
through all eternity it flies
wisdom waits till the very sordid end.

a lot many things make sense. none of them actually work.

what makes the Grand unification theory the second best thing.

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