money is a funny thing. its almost magical you see. i tell this from personal experience. money makes you feel able. money in account amounts to the shit you can do, the things you can make people do for you. I feel more capable with money than any amount of strength in my arms. you could go "dance motherfucker" and they would. you could ask the cab wallah to ride all night long and he would. you can even order refills of Jack D you know, even though you're not american or any such shit.
money does shit. all shit.

money money be my honey
money money say you'll be mine
money money i'll be your bunny
money money you make me feel so fine

money money i want you
money money they want you too
money money where are you going to be?
money money cant you see
money money i need you
money money but they need you too
money money come to me
money money money money.


and to think i was going to tell you about what i understood of money, technically. that aint happening not on this blog. not so long as theres JD in this world. not so long as i can afford it.

nothing troubles me more than the past. not the fact that it was bad, but it was better than it could ever have been.

I want to talk about girls like i was a teenager. i want to not miss the what we have already irrevocably skipped in time. the hindi feature filmi life. the stupidity. it was always a choice, and we had always to choose. I am not saying we went wrong. I am just saying it would have been nice to have both. in theory it does seem that way. in theory love would have been good. good theory makes good literature.

i want you all to be tormented. so i got some love songs for you to listen to. the playlist is called:

Immobilize me. kill me or love me.
yeah that sounds cheesy enough. It was always going to be stupid you know.



and this:



and this:



this too:


I think this is how I'll always know, through songs. I can't wait to read this post when I am 50.

all the songs here are from 'the boat that rocked" OST save the last. thats neil young. the guitar is so kickass that its not a love song or anysuch.

kung fu panda.

No. this is not a misleading misnomer of a caption.
I love the movie. It is the most awesome animated movie. it is the most awesome animated movie ever. it is the most awesome animated movie ever.

wow. this feels like new.

i so miss IIT Kanpur.

I miss being a hero.

I've always felt myself a misfit where ever I've been. without fail. I don't know, maybe its my undying, self rebutting, self that just happens to find peace in it. maybe a justification for the apparent incohesive chain of events and situations. better a stranger if its something you don't comprehend. right? but it also concerns me. I find this leads to a loss of identity of sorts. a lack of a marker. nothing absolute to make other things in relation to it. like a giant array of springs not fixed to anything, like the expanding universe with no center. I usually have this sense of detachment and in certain ways its very convenient. in others, its not.

any way i take up my first shitty job from tomorrow. first ever monies. first ever true independence, or is it?


I'll try against it, but i get this feeling i am going to be away for some time from here, so i'll leave you with the best picture i have seen in a long long time. it also happens to be the most important image ever taken by mankind, when it peeked into the depth of space for 11 days straight in an effort to see both, the bygone and the byfar (i made this word up. sorry.) But, if you appreciate this picture i can assure you you're in the right direction, where ever that might lead.

every smudge, spot, feature in the black is not a star, but a galaxy. and all in a patch of sky the size of your fingernail kept at a couple of meters distance.


The Hubble Ultra Deep Field.
Cheers.