pics. antaragni oh7

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road rage

screech.
tap.tap.tap.
clickity clank.
cacophony.
silence.
bang.
silence.
bang.(the children)

i am looking for something.
my sense of humor.
have u seen it?

its an ebony dark night
the shadows dont seem too friendly
like ghosts they suround me
i cant fight. not tonight.

the dull breeze is a whisper
"where to my son?"
"anywhere, anywhere but here."
"dissolve me till i am gone."

those stars wiggle in the distance
as if in mockery of me
laughing and jingling
in an unspoken language
comspiring and mingling
pushing me with their insistance

but i am not weak
weakness was never in me
these hands these fingers
shall mould what i am to be

i have taken the fall
now its time to rise
i have been burnt long enough
its time to rise. rise and fly.

and i must realise

a lonely dark road
we all must tread
alone i must go
no shoulder to rest my head.

these are arbit lines not interconnected(more like i was unable to). read each separately.

'my dreams are made from the stuff of clouds
some are white,others just carry rain
all inflated behind the shrouds
the world is only a salt grain'

'how i would like to tell you
how many things i have to say
i tried, i tried to communicate
but words just got in the way'

'i am all that is good
and all that is bad put together
mixed so fine
where then, do you draw that line?'


'we are all time travellers
lamenting our past
fearing the future
significance of the present,diluted.'

'in the heat of the night,
the din, a rude awakening
you shall have your peace, if u might
tomorrow courage calls on our being.'


'i'll see you on the other side of dawn
i am a dream u've forgotten, a dream u never had.
unstructured like a flat mass of liquid
an odd ripple here, an odd ripple there'

'a lonely dark road
we all must tread
alone i must go
no shoulder to rest my head.'

lyrics of the day-
"don't judge me
you could be me in another life
in another set of circumtances
don't judge me
one more night i'lljust have to take my chances
and tomorrow we'll see."
-sting

its a fucking conspiracy. all of this.
maybe i understand too much.
i need to run.far, fast.
i need to scream. i want to feel my throat.
need to smash something to bits.exercise my fists.
rip, tear something, and derive pleasure from it.
in my next life i'd like to be the hulk.
the worldbreaker.
HULK smashes!

'you'r making me angry. you wont like it when im angry."

Can you feel tomorrow coming?
because if u can't...no. u must.

how clean are you? how clean? are there things you regret you did? have you a confession to make? do you pine for redemption, while knowing there was none? is the sky as blue as it was when u gazed upon it frst with your infant eyes? has your palm opened, which were ever clenched when you were born? what have you lost that you held so tight? how far south have you gone?
are you searching for a reason? a direction? could that ache in ur head behind your eyes have been any worse?have u given up faith?

could you give me an answer? could you?

try.